July 29, 2009
On a break… from life
Ever just wish you could turn over the reigns of your life to someone else for a few days? I know that this is how people end up in abusive relationships. lol Giving up their control to another because they are too worried to take responsibility themselves. But, sometimes I sit and meditate thinking, man, I just need a break, you guys take over for a while. Knowing that they always help, but the nasty free-will clause is in place for me to learn “lessons” and do my own school work lol If you look in my history, I was never really great at school. I have this “problem with authority” or so they told me. I really never had a problem with it as long it was me in authority. haha.
Well, I have been releasing this problem bit by bit and enjoying the ride as I give up that control. But I am also well aware that I am still the one ultimately responsible for all decisions in my life. I can follow the guidance, watch the signs, and give into fate. But in the end it is my choice which direction I choose every time. That helps the control freak in me a bit.But also, wears me out once in a while.
The best solution I can come up with is to take a couple of days off. Veg out. Maybe go to the beach. Yeah, that sounds good